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I'm just ... after Sawyer broke my heart last night, Dean does it again tonight. Oh Dean. No perfect world of his would ever include him estranged from Sammy. And then he knows he can't stay. But what got me most was him with Mary. MARY. SAWYER AND DEAN'S MOTHER HAVE THE SAME NAME. I couldn't help but thinking if Sawyer got this wish, how it would play out and it would seem awfully damn similar. And this was also, deeply, deeply creepy and disturbing. I totally scared my dog crying out a few times. (But, why couldn't JDM come back? He came back to GA! I was very disappointed not to see him. ;_;)

I bring you caps instead of more words.

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Dean wakes up next to ... a girl?!

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Dean at prom!

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Dean hugs Mary. And if Josh is never getting any awards recognition, you sure as hell know Jensen is never getting any on a genre show on a little bitty network. But fuck me they both deserve it more than the people who ever do win.

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And this is where I pictured Sawyer, if he had a chance like this with his mother. How old was Dean again...? 4? 5?

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So freakin' happy it hurts.

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A world where Sam isn't Sammy? Is definitely not okay.

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*cries more than Dean*

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To be shallow for a moment, this has to be the most perfect shot of his lips. Ever.

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Saying goodbye to mom.

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Such a beautiful shot.

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Sammy. The real Sammy, at last.

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"I wanted to stay."

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arabella_hope
May. 4th, 2007 04:45 am (UTC)
!!!!

HOW DO YOU ALREADY HAVE CAPS??? Mine won't finish DLing and I NEED the bad manipped photos lol. CHRISTMAS OMG.

Um, yes. I'm rewatching again and I just keep wanting to BAWL.

halfdutch
May. 4th, 2007 04:50 am (UTC)
I hit the motherlode! (*emailing*)

And OMG. DEAN. DEEEEEAAAAANNNN.
isis2015
May. 4th, 2007 04:54 am (UTC)
You know, I've always had this super secret plot bunny in my head where Sawyer somehow gets to see his mother again (it's a magic island so it could happen) but the thought of it pretty much breaks my heart, so I'm kinda afraid of it. If it ever happens on the show (magic island), I'm pretty sure Josh will kill me. That man will never get the credit he deserves for the work he does. :( It's a damn shame.

Dean...god, I can't say enough about how sad I was for him, or how proud I was of him in the end. When he hugged Mary, the look on his face...god. It hurts. This was a really great episode.
halfdutch
May. 4th, 2007 05:55 am (UTC)
Oh.... Sawyer meeting his mom again. *wibbles* It could happen on Lost, you're right, if Christian can appear, than anything is possible. And yes, Josh will never get any credit because he is so beautiful. Look at his nonexistent movie career. A crime!

And oooh, you say you didn't watch? You're missing one of the best episodes of the season, at least the Sawyer part. If there were other things happening, I don't really remember! (Well, okay, yes, I do but they completely pale in comparison.)

Weirdly, SPN made me sob but Lost got me so that i didn't cry but I couldn't sleep, you know? It got me a lot deeper. When it's good, it's the best damn show on TV. When it's not, it's really, really not.

Anyway, yes, SPN. GAH. Dean is not meant to ever be happy. ;__;
zelda_zee
May. 4th, 2007 05:59 am (UTC)
I love Dean SO freakin' much right now it's killing me! And I didn't even know I could love him more! But I can! And I do! But I don't think I can love him more than this, because that would be impossible. ♥

I loved him with Mary, he broke me into tiny, little, shattered pieces and then he broke me again at John's grave and then about 100 times more after that.

This one may be one of my favorite eps yet.

I swear Jensen and Josh went to the same school of emo non-verbal acting because they're both masters of the craft.

I'm pretty much dead now.
halfdutch
May. 5th, 2007 12:29 am (UTC)
So completely in agreement with you. Dean with Mary and that hopeful expression on his face was just 9,000 kinds of angst. He knew the whole time it wasn't real but he just couldn't bear to have it end. This was absolutely one of Supernatural's finest hours.

And Josh and Jensen. Man. They will never get the respect they deserve but we know.

philomel
May. 4th, 2007 06:24 am (UTC)
Omg, caps. *starts sniffling again* The fourth one down is where I first started wibbling. So innocent, so desperately hopeful.

I know Mary is a common name and all, but there are just way too many similarities between Dean and Sawyer.

Btw, what's your header from? I've been meaning to say that I really like it.
halfdutch
May. 5th, 2007 12:34 am (UTC)
Oh man, right there with you.

And Dean and Sawyer's lives are so similar, poor boys, except Dean gets to be a hero and Sawyer doesn't. Interesting that in a world where Mary never died, Dean is a compete fuck-up. :-/

The header photo I came across through the "browse" feature of Photobucket, oddly enough! I neglected to write down the user's name, though and I'm not sure I could find it again!
kataclysmic
May. 4th, 2007 08:48 am (UTC)
I started crying when Mary kissed Dean's forehead at the beginning, and was horribly weepy for most of the episode (apart from the gardening because - ha!), but was outright bawling by the end of it.

And you're right - Jensen and Josh deserve recognition for their awesome work this week, but like hell will they get it :o(
halfdutch
May. 5th, 2007 12:48 am (UTC)
The Dean angst always gets me but last night was on a whole new level. POOR DEAN.

I dream of a world where Josh and Jensen get amazing acting awards -- and hang out, and drink beer, LOL.
kataclysmic
May. 5th, 2007 08:49 am (UTC)
There should be RPS fic where they do. And then they do blowjobs... and everybody is happy!
gottalovev
May. 4th, 2007 03:09 pm (UTC)
I couldn't help but thinking if Sawyer got this wish, how it would play out and it would seem awfully damn similar. And this was also, deeply, deeply creepy and disturbing. I totally scared my dog crying out a few times.

oh my god. I am dim like that, so I didn't think about that but ouch! so true.

I cried and cried. and now I almost cried at the caps.

And if Josh is never getting any awards recognition, you sure as hell know Jensen is never getting any on a genre show on a little bitty network. But fuck me they both deserve it more than the people who ever do win.

I KNOW! and it's so frustrating. they are amazing.

they were rough on our boys (and us) this week :(
halfdutch
May. 6th, 2007 01:08 am (UTC)
Oh, that icon slays me! In the best way, just like Dean did in the show Thursday. GAH. They really are trying to kill us! And they never will get the recognition because they're so very, very pretty. But we know!

ficangel
May. 4th, 2007 03:18 pm (UTC)
Dean made the choice to fight and go back before he knew it wasn't real. That kills me. That kills me. Before he knew that it was an illusion, he made the decision to end it at John's grave. He is a big damned hero, thanks so very much, and I kind of want to crossover SPN and Smallville now. Or, since Smallville is so hit and miss these days, SPN and Superman Returns. One big damned hero meeting another.

This episode was so good. So good. From all of Dean's insecurities actually giving him the clues that he needed, to Carmen (actress was WB middle of the line, but I adore the fact that Dean pulled a random face from a beer ad and turned her into his perfect woman was a smart, forthright professional who saves lives), to the foreshadowing. I just-go my musesfool's journal, because she's so much more articulate than I am, but last night Dean accepted the cup. And the finale is going to end with him drinking it. Either he dies or he goes evil for a time, but something epic is going to have to happen.
halfdutch
May. 5th, 2007 11:58 pm (UTC)
You are capable of more coherency than I!

GAH. I am totally unspoiled about the finale but it's going to kill us, isn't it?
ellel
May. 4th, 2007 06:41 pm (UTC)
Oh,the one of Dean and mom!!!Poor baby was 4 years old.:(
I am broken!BROKEN!First Sawyer yesterday and now Dean...
*weeps*
halfdutch
May. 5th, 2007 11:55 pm (UTC)
Oh man, you and me both. So much angst in one week! *clutches heart*
cmere
May. 4th, 2007 09:52 pm (UTC)
Oh my god, Jensen in that first scene with Mary was so. amazing. There are not words. *wibbles* The perfect tear tracks! Those lips ngh. God I'm so still not over this ep :( *cries*
halfdutch
May. 5th, 2007 11:54 pm (UTC)
Gah, I know! *is still a wreck*
belleimani
May. 5th, 2007 03:05 pm (UTC)
This show broke me into bunches of weepy pieces.
halfdutch
May. 5th, 2007 11:54 pm (UTC)
Me too. *hugs*
belleimani
May. 6th, 2007 11:36 am (UTC)
::hugs back::
And next week? It's only going to be worse!
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