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The Farther You Go, The Closer You Get

Title: The Farther You Go, The Closer You Get
Pairing: Sun/Frank
Rating: R
Note: For isis2015, who asked for Sun fics at the lostsquee luau. :)
Spoilers: General S5


She knows it's wrong, to lie here in Frank's arms, but there's really no right and wrong anymore.

Not when your husband has come back from the dead but he's still dead to you. She would have followed him to hell and that's just what she's done, in coming back to this place. But she can't follow him into the past.

She's come as far as she can and now she's stuck. It helps that she's not alone, that Frank is stuck here too. He wasn't looking for anyone, like she was, but they've found each other.

She likes to lie here and twine Frank's chest hair around her finger. He's ridiculously hairy, even for a white guy. She's fascinated by the play of white and black hairs on his chest, and his chin when he doesn't shave. He's not one of those people who seems to care that he's gone gray, that his belly isn't the flattest. He's so at-ease in his own skin, she can't help but breathe a little easier in hers. She thinks she craves that sense that is everything is okay even more than the sex. Here with him, she can forget, for a little while, that she may never see Jin again or Ji-Yeon.

Sometimes she pretends that Frank is the only man she's ever known, tells herself that his body inside her, on top of her, wipes out all traces of Jin. But sometimes it's the oppsoite: She hasn't slept with another man since Jin, so when Frank fucks her, it's the only way to get to Jin. It's more than closing her eyes and thinking of him. She can't convince herself it makes sense, but this is when she feels closest to Jin. It's almost if, by fucking another man, she can bring Jin back, that it's the only way. He'd forgive her, she knows.

And she doesn't know what else to do, not when Frank holds her so tight and tells her shes beautiful and that everything will be okay.

Comments

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isis2015
Jul. 22nd, 2009 07:23 am (UTC)
Wow, this is awesome. I've never read a Frank/Sun fic before but I'll admit, the pairing has always fascinated me (but anything involving Sun will usually manage that, even, apparently, Ben/Sun).

Thank you for this, hun, it was fabulous.
halfdutch
Jul. 23rd, 2009 04:24 am (UTC)
My pleasure! I'm so happy you liked it. :)
gottalovev
Jul. 22nd, 2009 01:24 pm (UTC)
ohhh, that's great! I love the idea of Frank and Sun (of course, Frank being made of awesome, I can't be against!)

it's also very bittersweet, totally fitting
halfdutch
Jul. 23rd, 2009 04:25 am (UTC)
Frank IS awesome, isn't he? Thanks for reading and glad you liked!
jenthegypsy
Jul. 22nd, 2009 01:41 pm (UTC)
All sorts of awesome! I love Frank with all my heart, and anything that breaks Sun out of her daze is good for me. ♥
halfdutch
Jul. 23rd, 2009 04:25 am (UTC)
Thanks, hon! I really like the idea of this pairing. And Frank = awesome, doesn't he? :)
slybrunette
Jul. 22nd, 2009 02:55 pm (UTC)
Well this is certainly a pairing I've never heard of (but instantly jumped on because I love both of these two -- especially Frank). This works so well in the face of canon this season, and it's definitely an intriguing coupling.

Great work!
halfdutch
Jul. 23rd, 2009 04:26 am (UTC)
Thanks for taking a chance! I definitely thought of it when they took they ended up alone (after knocking out Ben, good job, Sun!) And Frank needs someone, yes? :)
elliotsmelliot
Jul. 22nd, 2009 03:50 pm (UTC)
but there's really no right and wrong anymore.

Yes, I think that ended when Flight 815 crashed.

This was an interesting and sad reflection on Sun. I liked seeing Frank through her eyes and what his presence and body meant for her. I could really see this happening for her after coming so far and meeting nothing, she had to have something.
halfdutch
Jul. 23rd, 2009 04:27 am (UTC)
Thank you, hon. ♥ I agree, it seems right that she find *someone* there if she can't get to Jin. And I do believe he would forgive her.
mrspiccoloswife
Jul. 22nd, 2009 05:33 pm (UTC)
Beautiful fic. I ship this pretty hard, and this is the first time I've seen fic for them! Thanks for writing =]
halfdutch
Jul. 23rd, 2009 04:28 am (UTC)
Thank you! And wow, no one else has written this before? I'm kind of amazed because they definitely are worth shipping! Thanks for reading and for your comment.
bachlava
Jul. 23rd, 2009 12:33 pm (UTC)
This is an angle that wouldn't have occurred to me for this pairing, but I'm glad that it's occurred to you, because you've brought out Sun's state of mind/emotions so nicely. Bonus points for Frank's/Jeff Fahey's impressive chest hair. ;)
halfdutch
Jul. 25th, 2009 04:34 am (UTC)
Thank you! It's really only my second time writing Sun (and Frank as well I think!) And yes, I could hardly avoid mentioning the chest hair! Especially when Jin/DDK's chest is so smooth, it seemed such an obvious point of contrast. :)
cynthia_arrow
Jul. 23rd, 2009 08:32 pm (UTC)
I love Sun's meditations on Frank here (so spot on!), and the twisted but very real emotional logic she has about why she needs him so much.
halfdutch
Jul. 25th, 2009 04:36 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm so glad the emotional logic made sense. Sun has been such a driving force in her quest for revenge and then to find Jin, I imagine she would feel a little rudderless! Thanks for reading. :) (And I love your icon!)
jazzpno
Jul. 31st, 2009 03:31 pm (UTC)
I like this pairing too, though this is the first fic that I've read for them.

Sun is such a melancholy character, and Frank has a quiet steadiness that compliments that beautifully (and I adore the chest hair).

>>>And she doesn't know what else to do, not when Frank holds her so tight and tells her shes beautiful and that everything will be okay.<<<

Hopeful.
halfdutch
Aug. 2nd, 2009 04:12 am (UTC)
Thank you, dear! I guess this is a rather rare pairing! Thank you for the lovely comment. :)
siluria
Aug. 2nd, 2009 08:38 pm (UTC)
Wow - there's been some odd pairings come out of the luau, and although this is up there with the oddest, I think you did a fantastic job with it!!
halfdutch
Aug. 3rd, 2009 12:23 am (UTC)
Thanks, hon. I guess I didn't consider this one so odd since it did occur to me while watching those eps! But in terms of what's being written yep, I think it's unconquered territory! Glad you liked it.
zelda_zee
Aug. 25th, 2009 09:08 am (UTC)
Lovely work! And such a cool pairing!

I loved her thinking about how Frank's comfortable in his own skin.
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