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Title: All of Our Hands
Characters: Jack, Libby, Eko, Sawyer
Summary: Jack never thanked him
Note: Written for the lostfichallenge and for the fanfic100 prompt "Choices." Thanks to eponine119 for the beta.
Word Count: 1,069
Spoilers: Up through "What Kate Did"




Stay with Sawyer or go to Shannon’s funeral. That was Jack’s choice today.

Every day since landing here, he’d had to choose between saving people and inflicting hurt, between being a doctor and a leader. Had to choose who to trust, who to watch, and who to try to forgive.

Sawyer would live, he thought. He hoped. He didn’t even get a chance to save Shannon.

As he followed the path down to the beach, he couldn’t help playing out in his mind the hard walk he took toward her that morning after Boone died, how she’d taken a step back, and how Sayid had been there to steady her. How many days ago had that been? He didn’t even know anymore.

When he reached the grave site, everyone was already there. He was surprised to see some of the new people among the group. His eyes went to the tall, solemn Mr. Eko, who stayed toward the back of the crowd, as if out of respect. She wasn’t there, though. He had no idea what he would say to her. Didn’t know to feel about it.

Watching Sayid break down, he wanted to step in, maybe say something. Jack walked over to the grave. Everyone looked to him, as if expecting him to continue the tribute that Sayid could not.

Instead, he just took a handful of dirt and sprinkled it over her body. And then he walked away too.
----

“Hey. Jack, right?”

He turned and saw the 40ish blonde woman walking fast to catch up with him. He stopped and nodded.

“I’m Libby. I just wanted to say we’re all so sorry for what’s happened.” She watched him carefully, as if her existence might depend on his reaction.

“I know,” he said simply. He really didn’t want to be having this conversation right now.

“How’s Sawyer? Is he going to be OK?” She rubbed one hand over the other, a nervous tic she was probably not even aware of.

He dropped his head, picturing Sawyer as he’d looked when they first brought him back. “Yes. I think he will be. If it had been any longer though...” He met her eyes and saw she was smiling with relief.

“Good. I felt so bad for him. He was suffering but we couldn’t stop. She’d never listen to me, but thank God Eko wouldn’t hear of just leaving him to die. He saved his life, didn’t he?”

“What?” Jack couldn’t have heard her right. “What do you mean leave him to die?”

Libby bit her lip, obviously regretting her words. “You know, it didn’t look like he’d make it, and she had all of us to think about...”

“Are you saying Ana Lucia was just going to leave Sawyer behind?” He stepped in closer to Libby, towering over her. He felt his face grow red in anger.

She sucked in a breath, not sure whether to go on. “He’d given her so much trouble and she really didn’t know him and we’d always trusted her, up until then, but he really was in bad shape.” She was rambling now, words spilling over each other as if Jack were going to cut her off at any point. “Anyone could see that. It was Michael who insisted that we build him a stretcher. And then when she wanted to take it apart to tie up ... Sayid?” She said the name uncertainly, but at the anger plain on Jack’s face, she kept going. “Eko just lifted him up onto his shoulders, like he didn’t weigh anything.” Her tone was admiring, even reverent.

Jack looked past her, trying to keep his rage under control. He let out a breath. “I didn’t know.”

“That’s great he’s going to be OK,” she said quickly. An awkward silence followed, before she plunged on. “I don’t agree with what she did. I just wanted you to know that. I hated seeing her treat him like that, putting her foot on his wound...”

“She did WHAT?” Jack only thought he’d been angry before.

Libby bit her lip again. “I shouldn’t have said anything.”

He grabbed her by the arm, fingers digging in hard. “What did she do to him?”

She looked scared now, but he didn’t care. Didn’t care if he was hurting her. She swallowed hard. “He wouldn’t do what she said. Kept talking back to her. So she hit him. And when he was down, she put her foot on his shoulder and just ground it in.”

Jack dropped her arm in disgust. “I’m going to kill her.”

“No. No. Don’t do that. Look, please forget I told you. I just wanted you to know that now that we’re here, we -- Bernard and I, anyway -- we just want to help out. Do our part.”

“And what about Eko? What does he want?”

“I don’t know. I think he just wants there to be peace.”

Jack considered this. “I have to get back,” he said finally.

He left Libby standing on the path, looking after him.

---

When he got back to the hatch, the alarm was sounding and Sawyer was on the floor. He shouted for Kate but she didn’t answer. Where the fuck was she?

Locke came rushing in but Jack yelled at him to get the button.

He tried to lift Sawyer back into bed, but he couldn’t manage on his own. Suddenly, another pair of hands were helping him. Eko had ahold of Sawyer’s legs, and between them, they managed to get him back onto the bed.

Jack nodded a terse thanks and then he made sure Sawyer wasn’t hurt.

“How is he?” Eko asked, the deepness of his voice always catching Jack by surprise.

“He’s fine,” Jack sighed, as he took his pulse. “Well, about the same, really. He’s not quite out of the woods yet.”

Eko nodded and turned to go.

“Wait.”

The man paused, his face watchful.

“I never thanked you for bringing him back. You saved his life.”

Eko bowed his head. “There has been too much death already.”

Jack nodded. “Yes. There has. Far too much.”

He kept an eye on Jack, waiting for what he was going to say next. Or maybe waiting to be of more help.

Jack settled in next to Sawyer, wiping his forehead and trying to get him to drink some water.

When he glanced up next, Eko was gone.

Comments

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isis2015
Dec. 3rd, 2005 08:13 am (UTC)
Eko bowed his head. “There has been too much death already.”

Oh Eko. I love you so very, very much.

I can't help but wonder what Jack would do if he knew exactly all the shit that Ana Lucia's been doing. I mean, he nearly strangled Locke at Boone's funeral, and all Locke did was watch Boone fall off a cliff. Ana actively beat the crap out of Sawyer and possibly infected his wound further with her muddy boot. I'd say she warrents of an ass whooping than Locke.
halfdutch
Dec. 3rd, 2005 08:38 am (UTC)
Thanks! I love Eko so very much too.

Sadly, I fear that all the Sawyer abuse will never get brought up again and the show will keep shoving Jack towards AL. :-/ Because if Jack knew, yeah, I'd like to think he'd be more than a little upset.

corellianjedi
Dec. 3rd, 2005 07:29 pm (UTC)
omggggg eko fic. *loves you* This was lovely. I like that Jack was upset about Sawyer (but not in the really slashy way) being beaten up. And I just love Eko. :D Lovely.
halfdutch
Dec. 4th, 2005 12:35 am (UTC)
Awww, thanks! Glad you liked it. ;-D Eko is da bomb.

*replies with your same icon*

And I don't think Jack ever *will* find out about what AL did to Sawyer on the show. But I think even in a non-slash context, he'd be hella pissed.
zenana7
Dec. 3rd, 2005 09:16 pm (UTC)
You know, I don't fully share the Ana-LuciaHate... yet this serves as a good reminder of her loathsomeness. So easy to forget when she's sitting there all lonely by the sea -- why did they never try and even just wash his damn injury?!? back on the other side. I like how you had Libby inadvertently (or maybe it was vertently, hmmm? She is a shrink, after all) reveal all to Jack.
halfdutch
Dec. 4th, 2005 12:38 am (UTC)
Yeah, AL was definitely out of line, but she's not having to answer for anything she's done so far. It's all excusable or an accident, apparently. *sighs*

And yes, I'm aware that Libby is talking out of turn here, which isn't very admirable either. She's hoping to throw her allegiance to Jack and if that includes telling on Ana, well then she's OK with that, the way I saw it. ;-D Even if she didn't intend to at first.
arabella_hope
Dec. 4th, 2005 02:12 am (UTC)
You wanna know what I love? First of all, this fic, because...perfect as always, but secondly, how you replaced Locke w/ Eko...obviously you know my feelings torwards him, but GOD someone needs to write some Eko getting the lovin. It just...fits better, I think. Locke is starting to become last season's Kate, sticking his nose where it doesn't belong. Damn...did I just say that? The Eko love is a miraculous thing.

Anyways, the other thing I love is knowing that your fic is such an Ana-hate coping mechanism for you...you have written what we'd all like to happen...and I just wrote a novel of a comment :)
halfdutch
Dec. 4th, 2005 03:30 am (UTC)
Hee. I hadn't thought that about Locke. He just loves the hatch, though, doesn't he? ;-D I guess he was spying on all that shower sex then, LOL.

Anyways, the other thing I love is knowing that your fic is such an Ana-hate coping mechanism for you.

Awww, maybe that's not such a good thing, heh. But the show is happy to let certain matters drop, it seems, which, of course makes me less than happy.

..you have written what we'd all like to happen...
Some of us anyway. ;-D And thanks!

demonqueen666
Dec. 4th, 2005 06:10 am (UTC)
Ah, Eko. It's kind of awesome that the character that says so little still manages to convey so much with his few words and actions that we all have the mad love for him that we do.

And man, do I ever hope that Jack finds out all the crap Ana Lucia pulled over on Sawyer while he was injured. Of course, he probably won't, but it would be at the least very interesting to see his reaction if he did.

As always, short and sweet and very beautifully in character. The opening bit about Jack having to choose between leader and doctor was very poignant.
halfdutch
Dec. 4th, 2005 07:21 am (UTC)
Eko pwns season 2. ;-D At least the Tailie portion of it. If it weren't for him and the JKS triangle stuff, I'd be a very sad little fangirl.

I'd love for Jack to find out the truth about AL. But he seems to always be forgiving and forgetting with Kate so I guess he'd just shrug off everything AL did too. :-/ I suspect it won't ever come up again on the show, except if Sawyer and AL face off. And man, I hope he decks HER good. He's not the forgiving type. ;-D

So glad you liked this! Thanks!

belladonnaluna
Dec. 5th, 2005 02:44 am (UTC)
Hey! Nice fic-I love how you put Libby and Eko in there. I think that might be how they interact with the new people: Libby trying to make friends, and Eko just being...Eko. He's such a cool charachter: I hope he stays this cool too. Either way: nice fic with very nice interactions between the charachters!
halfdutch
Dec. 5th, 2005 06:18 am (UTC)
Thank you so much. ;-D First time writing Libby (and Eko with dialogue.) He is very cool, isn't he?
assassinofjoy
Dec. 5th, 2005 05:20 am (UTC)
OOO! Eko fic! *melts into a puddle*

If what AL did ever came to light, I'd imagine something like this on the show. You nailed Jack, I loved the bit at Shannon's funeral, and I dig how Libby sorta oopsie!blows the whistle on her. Even though we don't know much about her character yet, this sounds just about right. I've heard that the writers are pitching Libby as kind of a girl-Hurley ... hmmm. We'll see, I 'spose.

“How is he?” Eko asked, the deepness of his voice always catching Jack by surprise.

I just like that sentence, because immediately I hear that gravel-n-honey bass in my head *swoons* Very simple but effective storytelling. And teh Eko. This is just lovely *huggles you*

*curses her lack of fic-writing skills*
halfdutch
Dec. 5th, 2005 06:21 am (UTC)
Aw, thank you for the kind words! Libby as a female Hurley? Interesting. They could use some levity there! The way she popped that leg back in was definitely great. ;-D

*huggles you in return*
alliecat8
Dec. 6th, 2005 11:33 pm (UTC)
That's right, Jack, kill her. Please.

I'm glad Libby was a tattletale. One of my biggest issues about Lost is the lack of accountability for so many atrocious things. Remorseless murderers? Cruelty? Abusiveness? Hey (say the writers), let's just gloss over that and focus on the love quadrangle, instead! Bah. Sometimes I think they all have ADD. I really really like the way you turn it around in your fics and remind everybody that yes, there needs to be some accountability, here. I just wish the writers would listen. :/

Great fic! Sorry it took me so long to get to it!
halfdutch
Dec. 7th, 2005 05:59 pm (UTC)
One of my biggest issues about Lost is the lack of accountability for so many atrocious things.

Totally! The writers do gloss over a LOT of stuff, which isn't realistic to me, since the timeline is really just a few days apart, instead of weeks or months for us viewers. But they're always marching onto the next plot point (or NOT - if it was hatch-related, *sigh*). I do wish there was more accountability. It's not human to just let all this stuff go like it never happened. And I think it would deepen the show to have people realistically not trusting each other and holding grudges for more than two seconds. But then again, everyone on the show keeps secrets and doesn't share basic info so ... we'll see. I'd like to think that Sawyer wouldn't forget how AL treated him and that there's still hell to pay for her!

Glad you liked the fic. Thanks for reading!
gravi_girl123
Dec. 7th, 2005 02:54 am (UTC)
Fantastic. I loved Jack's anger, the way you described what Libby was saying. Your attention to detail is great--I loved the mention of her nervous tic. I could totally imagine that. Seriously, though, Jack's anger made me want to put my fist up in the air and cheer.
halfdutch
Dec. 7th, 2005 06:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'd hate it if everything AL did just got swept under the rug. And I love PissedOff!Jack so much. I want him to feel protective of his people and not just go with the flow, you know, because that's so NOT him as they've written him so far.

Thanks for reading! ;-D
ellel
Dec. 7th, 2005 11:27 pm (UTC)
How come I missed this fic?
*is confused*

Libby feels guilty over Ana's actions and the inhumane way she treated Sawyer,that she couldn't stop her.She was probably waiting to tell Jack or someone about it,to apologize and get it of her chest and get in his good graces.This fic is like a perfect reminder of what kind of person AL is,she will maim and kill,will leave wounded and harmless(he was at the time;)) to die and will justify it all in her head.Thanks Gods for Eko!!!
halfdutch
Dec. 8th, 2005 01:24 am (UTC)
Aww, well thanks for catching up!

ITA that Libby would want to distance herself from AL and that Jack needs to know, which is why I wrote this fic. ;-D

I guess I have an axe to grind. As I've been saying, I really hope that they don't just let all this go. AL needs to be held accountable for the way she's acted because while some of it was justified, a large portion of it was *not.* And Jack absolutely would not be sharing drinks with her on the beach if he knew the whole story. But then again, they're in such a rush to force a romance between them that they throw realism and continuity right out the window, starting with that horrible airport scene. :-(
ellel
Dec. 8th, 2005 10:57 pm (UTC)
But then again,they're in such a rush to force a romance between them that they throw realism and continuity right out the window,starting with that horrible airport scene.:-(
I feel so too.They are forcing romantic connections on characters and it doesn't make any sense.Like this "I love you" Sayid said to Shannon-WTF?Where did "love" happened?And if there anyone who is beyond wrong to pair with Jack is AL.
*sighs*
themoononastick
Dec. 14th, 2005 12:13 am (UTC)
Oh, I really like this. It's like the missing scene that needs to not be missing.
I love the take you have on Libby, the wanting to tell the truth but at the same time not cause any trouble. Perfect. And as for Eko... I may have issues with the new characters but I am falling a little in love with him.
This line captures him particularly well...

Eko bowed his head. “There has been too much death already.”

Wonderful stuff, hon. :D
halfdutch
Dec. 15th, 2005 08:07 am (UTC)
It's like the missing scene that needs to not be missing.

Wow! That's some praise. Thank you! And I'd certainly love these facts to come into evidence on the show. ;-D

I'm so glad you liked it. Libby's still a bit of a blank slate, I guess, but Eko really is very compelling. I almost wish we weren't getting his backstory for a while, because I'm enjoying the mystery so far. At least, I hope they have a good story for him.

And thanks for catching up with teh fic!

blue_oceandeep
Feb. 12th, 2006 07:09 am (UTC)
I love this! Sequel please?
Hi! I'm a new fan of Lost and I found your stories (I love them!) through the sawyer_jack community.

I adore this particular one and wish this had been a real scene! Any chance for a sequel? I hate Ana Lucia too and love fics that has characters (especially Jack) that acknowledges and are disgusted/shocked/angry/or etc at what Ana Lucia did to Sawyer.

And also, your fic just makes me feel bad for Sawyer again after being dismayed at what he did in the Long Con. I realized after reading "All of Our Hands" that I could fanwanked for more depth to why he pulled off the Long Con. With the lack of outrage from the other Losties, he probably thinks, that while everyone's glad that he didn't die, no one actually really seems to care. In his mind, that has got to justify his reasons (whatever they may be) for hating himself, and I bet he thinks he's worthless as a human being too. Probably could explain why he was so willing to pull of The Long Con. =(

Anyways, thank you for writing this story! *loves*
halfdutch
Feb. 18th, 2006 07:40 am (UTC)
Re: I love this! Sequel please?
Oh, thanks so much! And it's clearly a hot topic with me too, LOL. We know Sawyer's not the type to forget - he pulls the con over some beer stealing but lets it go that he was beaten and nearly left for dead by Ana? Not likely. It bothers me how the show keeps overlooking normal, expected character interactions and motivations like that. *sighs*

And you're practically writing the sequel for me. ;-D I would love to see Sawyer and Sayid team up for some revenge. They've both been ill served by Ana and no one cares and yeah, that bugs me too! Instead they're taking their frustation out on other people.

Thanks for reading!

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