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Reread BBM

I read BBM again last night, including the prologue, for the first time, now that I have the whole "Close Range" book. (Thanks to foxxcub!)

Some lines really got me this time, like Ennis having Thanksgiving dinner with Alma's new family and "trying not to be a sad daddy" to his girls. :-( Because he has to work so hard at it, that just killed me. As anyone who has ever worked hard not to be sad, that really got me.

And then THE SCENE in both the book and the film, Jack's memory of Ennis coming up from behind him and hugging him as he's nearly asleep on his feet:

Later, that dozy embrace solidified in his memory as the single moment of artless, charmed happiness in their separate and difficult lives. Nothing marred it, even the knowledge that Ennis would not then embrace him face to face because he did not want to see nor feel that it was Jack he held. And maybe, he thought, they'd never got much farther than that. Let be, let be.

He thinks that Ennis never wanted him, not really! :-( Somehow, with the beauty of that scene in the film and Jack's aching nostalgia for it, I'd missed or forgotten that there's that bitterness, even in that one moment that Jack has singled out as the time he was completely happy with Ennis. GAH! So you think he thought that at the time, or only later, with the bitterness and resentment of the years?

*sniffs* And once again, I'm in complete admiration of how skillful the film adaptation was.



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Jan. 7th, 2006 10:01 pm (UTC)
I first read the short story at least 5 years ago and never forgot about it. Jack an Ennis were trying to make their relationship work for 5 years in my mind. Their love like waves. When I finally saw it on screen, it was as if they finally did find each other. Finally came together. I know the film doesn't have a happy ending, but seeing the emotions written on their faces made the story utterly complete in my head an i felt utterly content. Please, don't get me wrong, the story is certainly not lacking anything, it's just....I can't even explain it, but I had this sense of coming home when I saw it.
Jan. 7th, 2006 10:16 pm (UTC)
It's like the book and the film together merge into this thing of beauty that just *can't* be explained, not to someone who doesn't know the story. I felt like pieces were falling into place when I read it again after seeing the movie, like it was richer somehow. I don't think one or the other surpasses each other; rather, they compliment each other. I totally understand your feeling of "coming home" when you saw the movie, because yeah...Even though I read it for the first time a little over two months ago, it really did feel like they'd found each other at last.
Jan. 7th, 2006 10:34 pm (UTC)
Yes, thank you!

PS. I hope you don't mind if I friend you, you're too cool :)
Jan. 8th, 2006 12:16 am (UTC)
Aww, of course! You're friended back. :)
Jan. 8th, 2006 08:28 am (UTC)
The two complement each other so well. The movie makes you see more in the story and vice versa. I love reading how Annie Proulx is so in love with the film too.
It's the rare film adaptation that gets things so right.

And hey, where did you see it? I went to the Grove, opening night and it was a fantastic audience.
Jan. 8th, 2006 10:56 pm (UTC)
i went to the Grove too, but it was about a week after it came out (had finals) People were great. They clapped and laughed and cried. I was sharing tissues with the lady next to me.
Jan. 7th, 2006 10:18 pm (UTC)
Again, the "sad daddy" line? Totally made me think of my dad. It's hard to explain, but I know how difficult those first few years after the divorce were, and how much he hated not getting to see me very much.
Jan. 8th, 2006 08:28 am (UTC)
*hugs you*

Jan. 8th, 2006 03:33 am (UTC)
I just saw the film tonight and it's still circling around my mind. Must read the story now.
Jan. 8th, 2006 08:29 am (UTC)
Oh, definitely do read the story. I saw the film, then read the story, then saw the film again, then read the story again .... . ;-D

One really enriches the other. You'll be amazed how close they got it with the film but the language and insights of the story are definitely worth exploring on their own.
Jan. 8th, 2006 09:46 pm (UTC)
I haven't seen the movie (because it won't be out here until March), but I've just read the story, because my f-list infected me with the BBM-virus, so I had a look what it's all about, and you only have to look at my layout to see to what it lead. Anyway, I really fell in love with the story, and what happens now is that I imagine Jake and Heath and I have my own little movie in my head. But I tell you how much I'm looking forward to seeing it.
Right now I'm reading the story for the second time, and I'll have to go and find out a few vocabulary-related things that I just don't know (my knowledge of American English pretty much sucks), but it's written so densely that there are so many little things that you just miss the first time around. And it absolutely had me crying at the end. Oh, and I've been listening to the soundtrack and two excellent fanmixes over the last 3 days, that's how I go on ^.~ (And I forgot reading every single article and review I can find in movie magazines. Bless our library. And the nice guy from upstairs who lets me borrow magazines that you can't actually borrow yet)

That scene is really heartbreaking, and it somehow really shows just how difficult it might be for Ennis to accept the fact that he's in love with a guy. And poor Jack, oh dear. I love the picture from that scene.
The whole situation for them is just so f*cked up. Ennis trying not to be a sad daddy. God, I couldn't imagine having dinner together with my mum and dad and my mum's new boyfriend. Or worse, with my dad's girlfriend as well. That might end in something Shakespearean. And remembering how difficult it was with my dad after the separation.

Whoa, sorry, I just wrote you quite a novel here. Didn't mean to do that...
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